I am jealous, so what!!

So I should be happy that I achieved as much as I have today but I am all worked up! Let's start at the beginning, I managed to wake up early today and it was like hurricane bitchina outside. So since I got up and out of bed all dressed and ready to run without realizing the weather this morning was so crappy, I decided to hit up the elliptical down in my basement. So I got a good work out and had a good start to my day, just not outside. I will try again tomorrow. It may be super cold but I am going to try. I laugh because there was a day when I would have been outside in this weather smoking. Ahh the little things make quiting soooo nice!

Managed to also eat and purchase a book at lunch today, Thank you Barnes and Noble. Turns out not only do running books exist, but there are like a million to choose from. Books on beginning, weight loss, meditation and running, yoga and running, running for kids etc etc. I ended up choosing The Non-Runner's Marathon Trainer. I have yet to get through the introduction but I think I am happy with this book. I will tell you more about the training details, I guess when I know them. All I do know is that the first day of running calls for three miles... I looked at the chart, and I am not quite there yet.

Then what got me fired up, the gym. I head there with no real goal in mind and not much motivation to work out. I was not sure if I was going to do the bike and read, some weight training or run. I literally decided after jumping on the treadmill. I guess since I saw two side by side open I just got excited because I went with Matthew. So I start running right away, again with no real goal in mind. Fellow quitters, get this I am running at a decent speed and see I ran for 2.5 straight miles and decided that I ROCK and hit the cool down button. Well the worst thing happened next. I show Matt how far I ran and he says "I am going to do THREE miles and I am going to sprint soon!" Well that he did and that really just pissed me off! There is no way I can let Matthew run more then me, NO WAY JOSE! Well I try and increase my speed but I was all ready on cool down mood and it would bring my speed down to like a slow walk..... UGHHHHH! Oh I was so angry with him! He just keep saying oh but I am a runner Trish....a. I just wanted to smack his mouth, but instead I just told him that "YOU CAN'T run in my 5k. Get your own" and I meant it. I started this project and I will admit I want it to be all about me me me! Well not really but he just can't run my first 5k and beat me, are you kidding me! I need him at the end waiting for me, cheering me on. So he does not get it why I am mad, but I am so that is all that matters.

So goals for tomorrow, get up work out in the morning, cross train tomorrow after work, and do something good and not running related. Let's see, I am running a million things in my mind... well I do need to reschedule giving blood. I will do that and I will geez I don't know. Wait I know. I am going to stop complaining at work and just focus on the good. I know it sounds lame, but I could benefit from this and I also think my department could too. I have been down in the dumps and I think that I may have been bringing other people down with me.

No cigs today and going strong. Enjoying some fancy beer Matt and I picked up after the gym and hopefully off to a good night sleep. Fellow quitters, stay strong and oh I forgot. Hello I am Trish!